tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59744535718315790672024-03-12T21:38:59.194-04:00Running the Race (Hebrews 12.1)My journey to a healthy body and a healthy spirit.Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.comBlogger51125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-1105261989883989442010-09-05T14:55:00.002-04:002010-09-05T15:13:57.331-04:00It...Is...Finished (for now!)I am still in awe that at around 12:11pm this afternoon, I completed my first half marathon. The run challenged me physically and mentally more so than anything else I've ever done.<br /><br />I'm currently sitting in my hotel room, still trying to process exactly what has just taken place. While I was running, though, I had the most amazing suprise around mile 5. My best friend, her husband and parents drove very early this morning to cheer me on. Needless to say, I couldn't believe my eyes. Unbelievable. <br /><br />So many runners/walkers, terrific weather, fun cheer squads, great bands, loads of memory and experience. I'm sure there will be many musings after this entry, about my time on the road. But for now, this tired little birthday girl is gunna take a nap.<br /><br />To all who supported, encouraged, tracked and watched - you can't know how much you mean to me. I could not have made it across the finish line with out you, and with me...you all finished strong!Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-12460286395592838072010-08-31T10:26:00.002-04:002010-08-31T10:50:31.271-04:00Countdown: 5 days!The weather was goreous this morning in the humidity capital of the universe. I hope that the weather in VB is like this: nice breeze, low temps, the smell of salt water from the beach. I'm not a huge fan of the beach, but I do have some pretty fond memories from when I lived on the beach! It should be a nice jog down memory lane (pun very much intended.)<br /><br />My vacation officiall starts tomorrow morning at 11am. It is my first true grown-up vacation since I've been working. Gunna head over to Jax to visit my family. I fly out Friday afternoon, and should arrive at my hotel just in time to watch the premier of Camp Rock 2: The Final Jam. That's right, I'll be 30 soon, and still frequent the Disney Channel and Nickolodeon. :)<br /><br />On Saturday, I'll visit the Heath and Fitness Expo that's happening next door to my hotel at the convention center. I'm quite excited about this, and hope to find some things that will aid me in being a better TKD instructor and future TKD school owner.<br /><br />Sunday is the big day. The race starts at 7am. I plan to be done close to 10:30am. There will be an after party on the beach that evening.<br /><br />I fly out for Jax very early in the morning, and should arrive home around 11:30am. Then begins my recovery time: a hot bath and bed!!<br /><br />Huzzah! 5 more days, baby!Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-56243270468876666312010-08-30T09:28:00.003-04:002010-08-30T09:41:34.359-04:00Countdown: 6 daysWell, the week of the race is here. After many long months of walking, and learning to run - the race week is here. I can't believe it. It seems more sureal now than before to tell people that I'm going to run in a half-marathon. Everyone I've talked to is very excited...then when I tell them it's on my birthday...that really seals the deal. Sometimes, I can't believe it myself.<br /><br />On May 12, I made the declaration for all to read that I would be participating in the Virginia Beach Rock'n'Roll Half Marathon. It was the next day that my true training began, but it wasn't until 2 weeks ago, when some great friends of mine, completed 11 consecutive miles, that I really understood what I'd signed up for. <br /><br />To me, who has never really been an "athlete" - this will be a great accomplishment. When I cross the finish line, it will be because of committment and pure determination, not because I have the talent, gift, or physique. I am, everyday, learning to make better choices - and sometimes I fail miserably. But I will run this race with perseverance. I will cross that finish line sweaty and smily (and probably tearful). <br /><br />Thank you to all who have been there from the start, cheering and pushing me, always encouraging me - especially when I didn't think I could possibly take another step. You will be with me along the course, for sure!Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-6158693356939242872010-08-27T13:45:00.002-04:002010-08-27T13:50:33.965-04:00I know that face...I was on my way back to work from running an errand, and I saw a young lady out running. I thought to myself, "I know that face." For a moment, I felt as though I were looking into a mirror. Not because our physical features resembled one another because they certainly didn't: She was lean and somewhat fit. No, I felt like I was looking into a mirror because I knew that face...lips pressed, sweat beading, face red...it was determination, grit and unwaivering perseverance. <br /><br />I know that face...and I love it!!Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-77617744543551327552010-08-19T10:08:00.005-04:002010-08-19T12:20:06.773-04:00Twice in a lifetime<div>On October 3, 1998 - I stood before a group of fellow students, family, and friends receiving one of the greatest things I could think of at 18 years old: a solid black belt with my name embroidered in gold thread. I'd seen my name affixed to many certificates with gold seals, but NONE compared to the achievement of reaching 1st degree Black belt. This moment memorialized hours of training, sacrifice, and study. For me, this was the moment of a life time. </div><br /><div><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 131px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 149px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5507156079435806130" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgptsL_k4MJq0spk_rioSDGvzwMEKg31Pr_XaG2YTxDYG_6ijMFYMKtIMKSGb4HUIlrOZywMkPAIUyPxw4NSV6Dgrt_zCKQbk50g6L5wUtqxytqAXOiXaPb7J4pfbOyejkfF4UkDkKtshOe/s320/1stBB.JPG" /><br />However, after leaving for college - my training in TaekwonDo came to an end. For the next 10 years, I would secretly (for fear of looking like a goon) kick and punch just to see if I still had it in me. The desire to one day train again remained, and the love of the art never died.<br /><br />In early September of 2008, my desires came true as I signed up to begin my training again. All the memories came flooding back: the smells, the feel; watching and listening. Certainly, aspirations of being healthy, flexible and strong were fueling me; however, one even stronger dream directed my decisions and focus: one day I wanted to have a school of my own; to influence children and adults alike - giving them the tools to do better, be stronger and healther, and reach further than ever.<br /><br />This journey has been and will continue to be dotted with smaller goals. I liken it to a rock wall - in order to reach the top, you must place your hand and feet on strategicly placed notches, each one building on the position of your last. The same applies here.<br /><br />Nearly 2 years later, on August 18, 2010 - I stood before a group of fellow students, family and friends receiving one of the greatest things I can think of at 29 years old: a solid black belt with my name embroidered in gold thread. I'd seen my name affixed to another black belt before, but NOTHING compared to reaching 1st degree black belt...again. This moment memorialized hours of training, sacrifice and study - and years of dreaming, struggling and missing that which I'd left behind.<br /><br />There is nothing sweeter than reaching an intended destination. But for me, the journey has only just begun. There are many more goals to be made and reached, and I have no doubt that each one will be sweeter than the one before. "Hello Goal, it is so nice to finally meet you. Your family is very large, but I have every intention of meeting you all."</div>Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-42949073868695363092010-08-02T10:37:00.002-04:002010-08-02T10:50:37.438-04:00Lots Going onIt was been a VERY long time since my last entry. A lot has been going on - some good, some bad, some painful. I have had a few injury set backs, that forced me to not train...But I'm still going!<br /><br />My short weekleys have allowed me to jog a mile consistantly. The humidity allows me to go no futher. I have added a leg circuit at the gym twice a week to help strengthen my knees, which has helped tremendously. <br /><br /><br />I have also been graced with a weekend walking buddy. He and I have ventured into trail walking/jogging. I've never done it before, and the first Saturday was torture on my legs, but the next day - recovery time was much faster. <br /><br />This past Saturday, we hit the trails again, for my longest distance to date of 7 miles (in 2h12m). Trails are much different than the pavement. To me, it would almost be like training to run with ankle weights or in water. Really tough, but beneficial. <br /><br />On August 21 or 22 - i'm planning a 15 miles walk/jog. That way I'll have a pretty good idea of what my body will do in Virginia Beach. <br /><br />My overall training has been most consistant than ever (as compared to my lame attempts in my life). However, there is always room to strive, push, and challenge. At the end of the finish line - i will not be done. This will be a lifetime thing. Perhaps, I'll be fit enough to run (yes, I said run) a full 26-mile marathon. Wouldn't that be something?!?<br /><br />Until then - learning to throw off all that hinders, one painful step at a time.Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-87488098756632132532010-07-20T10:39:00.002-04:002010-07-20T10:55:59.462-04:00Left...right...left...rightThat's kinda how I feel right now...that I only have my wits about me enough to put one foot in front of the other. There are several stressfull things going on in my tiny corner of the world, and trying my very best to not let it effect my training - but admittedly, it's hard to do sometimes.<br /><br />There are 46 days left until my event. I'm still training, and doing TaeKwonDo. Now, I've added some light strength training for my knees. Today, they are mildly tender - but they do not hurt. Even after a very intense TKD workout last night with lots of twisting, pivoting and jumping...they do not hurt. <br /><br />The key now is to remain consistant, and injury free. Left........right.........left.......right...left...right...left...right, left, right, left, right, leftrightleftright.Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-9902935811815861732010-07-12T10:51:00.003-04:002010-07-12T11:14:02.206-04:00Du the Gu in Nu ShuzSo...at the race event in September there will be a lot of things going on along the course: music, spectators, water stations, and Gu. I love the first 3 things, but Gu?!? What the heck is Gu, and why on earth is it on my race course? Well, it is a gel-like substance that helps with energy on long distance treks. <br /><br />Normally, I am not a fan of energy drinks, or substances - but at mile 10...who knows what my brain will be thinking: mirages, delirium? So, on the off chance that my brain, in a state of slosh, demands that my hand reach for a packet of this Gu - i thought it wise to start training with it, a little. I bought 2 flavors: orange and lemon, and used them yesterday during my long run/walk.<br /><br />I am so glad that I have 1.5 months to get use to this Gu. It wasn't bad...just VERY different. <br /><br />In conjunction with this new experience, I'm also breaking in a new pair of shoes. The Motos that I bought a few weeks ago, didn't last very long. So, I'm wearin a very stylish, gray and pink pair of shoes with great arch support. Unfortunately, my feetsies aren't quiet used to them yet, so they yell loudly at me.<br /><br />Now - with 54 days left, I must continue to press on. I still think I'm a little loopy, but what's life without a little loopiness.Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-74663914142225963642010-07-06T08:12:00.002-04:002010-07-06T08:34:53.319-04:0060 Days and countingWell, yesterday was the 2 month mark. Now is the time where my "focus needs more focus." No slacking, no whining, no more punkin' out. <br /><br />I will admit, rather freely, that I am quite nervous at the thought that in 60 days...I'll be in mid-route journeying toward the finish line. I have NEVER done anything like this...done something that didn't hinge on my natural abilities and/or talents. There is always the through of "What if I fail?" or "What if I'm last?" I try and tell myself that it doesn't really matter - but deep down...it does.<br /><br />When I think about some of my friends (both past and present) have accomplished - I feel like a slight underachiever. But I know I can't stay in that frame of mind, now can I? So, i will do my best to throw out the line of thinking...and work at persevering through this all the way to the finish line.<br /><br />60 days and counting!Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-26267460034228288952010-06-29T09:13:00.002-04:002010-06-29T09:35:42.010-04:00Back to the GrindA week ago, I injured my knee (slightly), so I took that week off from training - spent the day home on Friday to ice and elevate it. Went out this morning for the first time and while my knee was little tender when I began jogging, it eventually loosend up and didn't twinge quite as bad. <br /><br />What caused my knee to rebel against me...? One day during a Taekwondo class, I attempted to do 'real' squats, which I know to be a no-no. Squats and lunges are my MORTAL ENEMY!!!! The up-down motion on my knee joints is painful, and while it feels good at the moment and I tuck my thumbs under my proverbial suspenders thinking I've just done this wonderous thing...I pay for it a few days after...not on a few occassions, but EVERY...SINGLE...TIME!!!<br /><br />So, i'll continue to do isometric squats and lunges while the rest of my compatriots bob up and down. Perhaps one day, when I'm about 115 pounds lighter, maybe then I'll be able to do them. <br /><br />Guess what?!? I bought a new pair of running shoes. <a href="http://store.nike.com/index.jsp?sitesrc=uslp&country=US&lang_locale=en_US&l=shop%2Csearch%2CsearchList-moto#l=shop,pdp,ctr-inline/cid-1/pid-239422/pgid-239423">The Nike Air Max Moto+7</a>. It is suprisingly comfortable and feels good on my tootsies. It also opens up the option to use Nike+, which is a small device that fits in the shoe, under the insert. It provides training data, and can sync with my itouch. <br /><br />However, these wonderful, beautifully new, super hot-looking shoes DEFINITELY need to be broken in. I walked in them today for the first time, and by the time I was done, i thought I would cry because the outstep of my foot ached so badly. I think this happens with most new shoes, and after about a week or so, i'll be just fine. But in the interim...GEEZ!<br /><br />There are 67 days until the race. My self-motivation is wearing thin as of late. I'm finding it harder and harder to get up in the morning and walk/jog - especially during these wonderful, Florida humid months. i'm not giving up by any small stretch, I'm just sayin' it's gettin hard.<br /><br />So I'm askin' you to help me keep running this race with perseverance.Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-80619910211689414582010-06-22T10:26:00.003-04:002010-06-22T10:51:44.867-04:00Dear Anonymous Comment -I don't think that I have ever been so humbled and honored. Thank you for your kind words of encouragment. Your new committment has inspired my heart. When I started this journey 41 entries ago - my heart's desire was to inspire people to start their own journey; to help encouragment and challenge them to take strides of faith. But in all honesty, I didnt' really think it would happen. It was a nice dream and desire, but I had no idea that this tiny blog would have the effect that is has.<br /><br />If I could offer 1 piece of advice for your new journey, it would be this: find someone you trust and can count on to run this race and train with. Also, surround yourself with a good support system (including me, i hope) to offer you encouragement, and who you can share your concerns, struggles, triumphs and feelings with about the whole process. I have a great support base of family and friends (both near and far) who send their love to me. But I have done the majority of my training alone. This was fine in the beginning, but after about 6 weeks - it got kinda lonely and was very hard to push myself like I need to.<br /><br />This is a very physical process, but it also seems to be a very emotional one too. I am sorting through thoughts and feelings that I've not really had to deal with in over 15+ years. To have an outlet for it all is so important. You might consider starting your own blog. :)<br /><br />Friend, i hope to hear from you again. Let's help one another to run with perseverance this race (any kind) that has been set before us and we have made the choice to journey. Thank you again for inspiring me.Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-66482451118911582992010-06-21T12:05:00.003-04:002010-06-21T12:25:33.746-04:00TOTALLY AND COMPLETELY POINTLESS?!?!?!?So, yesterday (Sunday) I went on my jog/walk around the campus as I have been doing for the last few Sundays. The weather was actually kind to me. In the midst of dripping sweat, and feeling my calves becoming more defined - I let my mind wander. <br /><br />The last 2 weeks have been less than motivational. I've skipped workouts and have really not bad much attention to the food and drinks I've put in my body. <br /><br />I started thinking - and I can be fairly logical when I need to be (or when no one is looking)! :) If I am so stubborn and lazy to not really monitor my eating habits, then what is the point of working out?!? If I have a great morning run, but eat a greasy cheeseburger for NO other reason that I just wanted one...then all the sweat, tears, panting, burning, and sometimes limping have been voided out.<br /><br />In the book of Romans, Paul talks about where sin and evil behavior increase, God's exention of grace increases all the more. But should we continue in wrong behaviors so that grace could increase? In other words, is grace a license to do wrong? Of course not. The same thing is true in my case - does working out more give me free reign to continue to make unhealthy choices...of course not. <br /><br />Every time I make an unhealthy choice...a portion of my journey has become pointless. If my goal (aside from the half-marathon) is to become healthy and build good habits, working out alone will not do it. For me, there must be a conscious effort to choose the apple over the Hershey's bar, the salad over the burger, and the water over the endless IV of coffee and sodas. <br /><br />I don't want my journey to become moot because I wanted to cheeseburger. I don't want all the hard work to be totally and completely pointless. <br /><br />Please help me to run with true perseverance this race set before me - and to stay the course with diligence.Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-15928228912668673402010-06-16T12:16:00.001-04:002010-06-16T12:16:29.666-04:00Hunka hunka Burnin CalvesI went running this morning - but it sure felt like was starting from scratch. I was very winded, and sweaty - and my CALVES WERE KILLING ME!!!<br /><br />However, I pushed through at made my 25 minute scheduled walk. <br /><br />Do any of you run, and your muscles not burn? Will there ever be a moment when my body, as a whole, will move like a well-oiled machine - everything working as it should, no pain, cramping, burning, stinging, panting, tearing...etc?<br /><br />Perhaps one day - but I assure you...today was not that day. <br /><br />Keep the Faith, Stay the Course - and Run with Perseverance this race that's marked for us!Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-33026713225987584272010-06-15T09:19:00.002-04:002010-06-15T10:04:49.142-04:00Blisters are not BlissToday - I could only manage about 10 minutes of walking because my sneakers rubbed so fiercely on my poor little 'piddies,' - I almost cried. I think I may need to talke the advice of a friend and go to a shoe store that can fit the perfect shoe to my not-so-perfect feet. <br /><br />Last night I had Taekwondo, and was swapping running stores with a friend of mine. She was telling me how she went on a 5 mile run on Saturday morning, and a 4 mile run yesterday (at a 10-minute mile pace). She said to me, "Saturday was wonderful. My husband and I went on a run at a comfortable pace - about an 11-minute mile..." I must confess I was not only jealous, but began to beat myself up for not trying harder, and pushing myself more.<br /><br />After class was over, we resumed our conversation about running - and shoes came up. She recommened a local store for quality, good fitting shoes. She told me that she had been running for over 3 years. I remembered my thoughts from before. I've been 'running' for 4 and a half months. In those 4.5 months, I've managed to find myself with an average running pace of between 14:10 and 14:40. Needless to say, I stopped being so hard on myself. :)<br /><br />Am I where I want to be? Nope! Am I where I need to hope? Nope! Am I where I was? NOPE!!!!! I think sometimes (atleast for me) we look at the acheivements of others and say to ourselves, "I'll never be able to do that" or "I wish I could do that." Then we begin to beat ourselves up for the decisions we've made. Next thing ya know, we are so bruised, broken and blistered that we can barely put our shoes on to go for a walk. That just seems so counterproductive to me.<br /><br />What would happen if we evaluated those poor choices, came up with solutions to fix them, gave ourselves an inspirational pep talk stating our goals, purposes and means to meet those goals - THEN laced up our sneakers and hit the road? I think we'd be able to walk/run longer, harder and/or faster than ever. <br /><br />Right now, it's not about what I have done or not done, or even whether I can keep up with other people. It's about being a little more and a little better than the day before. If I think I cannot go any further...to find something within me to push just a few more feet - that, my friends, is the pinnacle of change.Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-87335049015061444082010-06-13T22:29:00.002-04:002010-06-13T22:43:43.567-04:00Week 5 RecapThis week has been, well...kinda crappy for working out. I punked out a couple of times. Everything things seemed to be hinky, and I had little motivation. <br /><br />But today, I got up early so that I could get my 5 miles out of the way before humidity took over the day. It took me about an hour and half, and I could totally tell that I hadn't trained during the week like i usually do. My shins and calves burned so I could barely walk. <br /><br />But I got it done.<br /><br />At this time, in 83 days, I'll be in my hotel room (probably curled up in a little ball) - having accomplished that, which to me, seemed impossible. <br /><br />In the meantime, i have no doubt that I will have more days of punk-outs and push throughs. It is all a huge learning experience.<br /><br />Maybe your goal is not a half marathon. Maybe it's that your body won't ache so much, or you want to see your kids grow, and play with your grandchildren. Maybe for you, you simply want to get out of bed in the mornings and not be in pain. Whatever your goal is, set your sights on it. Things will come and try and steal your focus, but you/we have to stay steadfast. There will always be more things to do - but we have to learn to do things for ourselves that will allow us to do those things. <br /><br />Here is your challenge for this week (week 6 for me) - Think about what goal it is you want to accomplish and the timeframe you want to do it in. It doesn't have to be fitness related. It can be any goal and any time frame. I'd like you to post it in the comments section below (or on Facebook), or if you'd prefer - send it via email. <br /><br />Sometimes, when we hear about the goals of others, it helps us reach our own because we take a little comfort in knowing that we are know alone. <br /><br />We are not a lone at all. Let's go, all the way, with perseverance. I am confident that we will make it.Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-78849469584680222432010-06-11T09:36:00.002-04:002010-06-11T10:04:52.483-04:00Punk-outs, Push-Throughs and PerseveranceWhat a week for me...<br /><br />For the 1st time in over 4 weeks, I punked out on a morning run on Wednesday. I was so emotionally drained that I simply didn't want to go. And you better believe that as I donned my instructor uniform at our belt ceremony, i thought about the moment i'd lost. And, yes, regret set in. <br /><br />Sometimes it is so very hard to find the mental and emotional motivation - that I must go beyond that and do what needs to be done because it needs to be done; not because I want to, or I feel like it. That is a tough lesson I'm learning. <br /><br />Yesterday, I felt the same way. I didn't want to go walking. BUT...I did it anyway. While I was walking, I was faced with several emotions about a lot of things. It's a really good thing that traffic was light - I'm sure I looked like a COMPLETE idiot with tears streaming down my face as I walked. I pushed through it, and got a mile and a half under my belt. <br /><br />Let me also put this out there. I love Jesus, no question. And while i'm walking, running, sweating and panting - i talk to Him a lot. Sometimes its about spiritual things; sometimes its not. I'm not gunna get preachy (this time), but needless to say - He is the reason for my race. I'm learning (albeit slowly) a lot about my journey of faith through my journey on the pavement. Some of it is SO refreshing and wonderful. Some of it is refining and painful. But all of it is necessary and good.<br /><br />The choice (unfortately sometimes) to punk-out, or push through is solely mine. "With great power, comes great responsibility." I'm not working toward being "punk-out free" just to do it less. <br /><br />If you are having a tough week, lets push through it. Feeling completely inept? Push through. Feeling lost? Push through. Feeling like you wanna punk-out every 5 secs? <--- Courtney push through.Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-24469396533979283332010-06-08T07:59:00.005-04:002010-06-08T10:44:34.097-04:00The Last Few DaysIt's been several days since my last entry. Things have gone a little whirly, so unfortunately the blog (but not the training) had taken a back seat.<br /><br />Last Friday (6/4) I had the day off, so I decided to go to Lake Ella to do my walk/jog. I must confess that I didn't like it very much. Ducks everywhere and to be honest...the smell was a little stifling. But I digress. After 25 minutes, and determined to make the most out of my remaining 10 minutes, I decided to try a little interval training. What i wanted to do, was to walk/run from lamp post to lamp post. HOWEVER, i am not all that comfortable or confident in what my body (particularly my stomache) does when I run full-out. I battled with myself past several lamp posts, until I threw in the proverbial towel and mental screamed at myself..."WHAT DO YOU CARE??????" It's not what you maybe thinking. I had an intense debate with myself, but the good thing is...I won. What do I care what people may say about me, or how they look at me? What do I care if I don't have the exact runner's body (yet)? Most of my fears are from things that I don't really know if they go on...For example, does the guy in the car really snicker as I run past, does the girl that runs past me as I pant and sweat thing me a complete doofas, does someone say...."Oh My God, Look at her stomache, it's like SOOOOOOO big"? Nah, probably not, it's the perception i have of my own hang-ups and how I feel about myself.<br /><br />So, I finally had to say - what/why do I really care? This journey isn't between me and so-and-so, it's between me and...well, me! [Dear Courtney, stop being a complete putz. Do what you need to do to meet your goals, regardless of what you may or may not think. Step it up, woman! Love, Courtney]<br /><br />Saturday (6/5) was the first day in 4 weeks that I missed my training. Due to a Taekwondo function, I wasn't able to run in the morning, and by the afternoon, Tallahassee was besieged with thunderstorms. I still would have gone if it had been raining only. I need to learn to run in the rain, just in case it rains the day of the race. But thunderstorms, fahgetaboutit!<br /><br />Sunday (6/6) was my long run day. 2 miles at a brisk pace. I started at about 8:30a.m. I ran about .25 miles and could barely breathe. The air was thick with humidity. I felt like I was trying to breathe through a mask of hot, damp air. I did manage to finish my 2 miles in just under 36 minutes. Not my best; not my worst. It was just a tough day mentally for me.<br /><br />Monday (6/7) was supposed to be a day of rest. But, because of some events with work, I ended up walking, shopping, lifting, and sweating at Wal-Mart for 4.5 hours. So, I exchanged my day of rest for today.<br /><br />This journey to healthy living is a beast sometimes. It can be trying, long and often times the results come in small increments - that can go unnoticed. So I have to constantly remind myself of the goals that have already been met, acheivements already revelled in, challenges that have been overcome, and those who have been inspired and who inspire me.<br /><br />The last few days have almost gotten the best of me. Sometimes...I have to close my eyes, visualized the finish line and what it will feel like to cross it, and to imagine all the people on the sidelines who have encouraged and pushed me to be better, cheering me on. Because of that...I will lace up my runnin shoes in the morning, and continue this journey. In 87 days, it won't be my imagination...it will be my reality.<br /><br />Until we meet again...lets encourage and push one another to keep running/walking with perseverance this race (whatever it may be) that has been set before us, and continue to throw, peel, push and sweat off EVERYTHING and ANYTHING that holds us back from being the best we can be, and living in the abundant life.Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-39782187203489194702010-06-02T21:49:00.004-04:002010-06-02T22:00:14.202-04:00"Daylight, I must wait for the Sunrise......I must think of a new life and I mustn't give in..." A song that is closer to my heart than any other. This phrase, in particular, is fitting for today. As crappy as I felt yesterday, and wondering why I was doing what I was doing...I got up, earlier than usual to walk. Today was a simple, 20-minute stroll. Half way through my walk, I was still thinking about many things - and I decided to jog. So, I picked up my pace and ran for 2 minutes at a 13:40 pace. 2 full minutes...that's a first for me. Then I walked a bit, ran another minute; walked a bit then ran another 45s at the same pace. <br /><br />Afterwards, I felt better; much better. My body defied the odds, and I like that. :) So...while today as still full of emotion, doubt, and deep pensivity... "...I must think of a new life, and I mustn't give in..."<br /><br />Today, I ran with all the perseverance I could find. Today, I didn't give in. Today...His mercies were new.Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-30412116398588920182010-06-01T22:25:00.003-04:002010-06-01T22:42:00.457-04:00Not a sound from the PavementI've put off writing this entry as long as I could. Today was 35 minutes at a fairly easy pace, but I wanted to start doing some interval training. As I listened to very monotonous music, with a decent techno beat - I had an overwhelming urge to give up...to quit right then and there. Not sure where it came from, or why that feeling came...but it did. <br /><br />This is the beginning of week 4 of my marathon training...and I've been feeling very alone. I get up in the morning, and head out of the door with only myself and David (the little yellow guy that runs on my iTreadmill app). But he doesn't provide much comfort because he goes and goes and never breaks a sweat. <br /><br />I guess the important thing is that in spite of how I felt - I didn't quit. I persevered through my 35 minutes even though I really didn't want to. I've had 3 really good weeks of achievements and personal bests. Mountain tops without the valleys tend to lose their majesty and grandeur. However, what made this valley different that others I've ventured through...is that I kept going. Only having enough light to stand on, there wasn't a chance to admire the beauty down below - but that's ok. Next time, I'll be sure to pack a bigger flash light.<br /><br />There are 3 months until September. Sometimes, while I'm laying in bed at night - I have my doubts about this whole deal. I wonder if I'll actually make it to the finish line. I asked my best friend if she thought I could do it, and without hesitation or batting an eyelid she said, "absolutely". Today...I don't have that kind of faith in me. Maybe tomorrow. <br /><br />No doubt that I'll have a few more days where I simply don't wanna...but for now, I'll keep putting one foot infront of the other. The mercies of the Lord are new each and EVERY morning.Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-17977437061764035582010-05-30T10:45:00.002-04:002010-05-30T11:17:27.623-04:00Not as Fast...but FasterNot as Fast as I would like, but Faster than ever before. At least this is how I felt this morning as I journeyed my very first consecutive 4-mile trek. I ran the first mile in 14:40, the first 3 miles in 50:19; total time, 1:07. It took me much shorter than I accepted and there's no doubt that those first 3 miles were MUCH easier than the previous 2 Sundays. <br /><br />I wish I could just let my mind wander while I run, and not focus on the searing pain in my calves, back and sholders (none of which I'm terribly worried about, other than it's annoying)`. Maybe it will get easier...I sure do hope so. <br /><br />I started at the FSU track, and there was a young man running on the far inside lane. He had such a beautiful kick...I dream of the day when I look that good. :)<br /><br />During the last .75 miles, I felt a little lonely. I let the feeling come, started to jog - and then it passed. I knew I couldn't stop, I had to keep going. <br /><br />We'll see this week holds. Let's keep running with perseverance this course we are on. :)Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-66020296373681023522010-05-29T18:07:00.002-04:002010-05-29T18:27:37.043-04:00Interval trainingMan, Oh man! So, I found this really cool interval training podcast - podrunner.com. So, I thought I'd try it out today. The first week's podcast was 30 minutes. I only managed to get through 15 minutes of it before my shins were burning so badly I could barely take another step. I feel like such a wimp. :)<br /><br />However, on a happy note - I did lose 3 pounds this week. For those of you who don't know...I am a member of Weight Watchers. It's a TERIFFIC program. The basic premis is that foods are assigned point values based on calories, fat and fiber. One thing I need to do better on is being more mindful of how many points I actually consume on a day-to-day basis. <br /><br />Tomorrow will be a very active day. It's my first 4-mile and, plus I have a black belt work out in the afternoon. I'm VERY glad I have monday off.Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-49757409526414305892010-05-27T16:25:00.002-04:002010-05-27T16:39:56.709-04:00Today...just Today!Today I pushed myself a little harder than usual. I managed to jog out a mile in 14:23. Pretty sweet! My average pace time, though, went up a little - and my total distance went down, neither by a huge amount. Now I think what I need to work on is being able to maintain a 15-minute mile for more than just 15 minutes. I need to be able to maintain that speed while jogging for 20 minutes (at first). I'm pretty sure it will come. <br /><br />If you had asked me, "Courtney, do you think you'll be able to run a 15-minute mile after just 2 full weeks of training?" I would have scoffed and come up with some whitty come back. But I've done it, not once, but twice. <br /><br />Things are coming together: I've registered for the race in Virginia Beach and booked my hotel. I'll soon be booking my flight from JAX to VB. My training is consistant and my body is responding fairly well, I think. Some things I need to work on - in the midst of this success: I've increased my water intake, but need to lay off the coffee and sodas; less eating out, more veggies, and being consistant in incorporating strength training with my race training. <br /><br />It's good to celebrate success, but I like to have new goals in my crosshairs. <br /><br />Still runnin, tryin' to do it with perseverance.Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-75878525778340461192010-05-26T08:07:00.002-04:002010-05-26T08:41:10.122-04:00Out for a StrollToday - a 20-minute stroll. No goals, no agenda; just constant light movement for 20 minutes. The weather was fantastic again! (Thank you, Lord!) Yesterday, I pushed hard so it was nice to just go 'out for a stroll' this morning. My best friend even came with me. :)<br /><br />It as a pretty uneventful morning. And that is <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">ok</span>! Let me share something that I've learned. If you have a goal, one of the biggest components to meeting that goal is having a plan. Then being consistent about following that plan. I've been using this: <a href="http://www.halhigdon.com/halfmarathon/walk.htm">Half Marathon Training: Walkers</a>. Each day is already planned for me, I just need to do it. This keeps me from saying, "well, I really don't know what to do...so I'll research tonight and then start tomorrow." Tomorrow will be come today, which becomes yesterday - and before you know it...a week or two has gone by. <br /><br />Also in my plan: 2 built-in days of rest. SO IMPORTANT!!! Before I started this journey, I would just do what I needed to in order to make it to the day of rest - but then feel guilty because I was taking rest, knowing that I hadn't really worked hard before getting there. NOW - I work hard in between, and am grateful for those 2 days. I feel no guilt at all. Instead, I feel a sense of accomplishment because I know that those 2 days are like a reward for my diligence. <br /><br />In the beginning, it may not be about setting huge goals, or gym memberships, or even half-marathons. For you, dear friend, it may simply be about being <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">consistent</span> to a plan. If your plan to begin with is walking for 10 minutes a day, 3 days a week - do just that and nothing more. Once you realize that you can do that...you'll WANT to add either another day or 2 or more time. <br /><br />When I was working with a personal trainer - the first time she said "We're going for run"... I was TERRIFIED!!! I've been overweight all my life, and had <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">awful</span> images in my head about what I would look like while running, how my body would feel, and what others might think when they saw me running. After all was said and done...I was completely shocked at what my body could do. Yes, I felt totally <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">awkward</span>. Yes, initially there was a lot of pain. Yes, I'm sure that ignorant people scoffed and jeered. But I did it. First it was 15 seconds, then 30, 45 and then a minute (with equal amounts of walking in between). Then we repeated it 7 more times. During those last couple of sets...I thought I was going to die. I couldn't breathe, my entire body was wracked with pain, and I wanted to chop off my legs from the knee down (figuratively speaking). But I lived, and actually craved to do it again because I was <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_4" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">enthralled</span> with what my body was actually capable of in spite of my size and horrible joint condition. <br /><br />Now, I am able to run a mile in 15 minutes. Is it because I have become a super athlete over night. OF COURSE NOT!!! It's because of 1 thing: Consistency. I do my best to be consistent in my training AND in my blogging (which has proved to be a great accountability tool for me). <br /><br />I have no idea how many people read this, I hope there are lots. But even if for just one - YOU can do this. The path to healthy living is not a destination, it is a lifelong journey. My journey will not stop at the finishline in Virginia Beach in a few months. That is simple a mile marker. <br /><br />Whether we run, walk, waddle or crawl - let's do it with perseverance always keeping the true prize of Christ in our focus, and always make effort to throw off everything that holds us back.Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-54625171396003836012010-05-25T12:39:00.004-04:002010-05-25T20:18:41.403-04:00A Great start to Week 3Well...technically yesterday started my week 3 of training, and my day of rest was good. But today was GRRRRREAT once I made the choice to get my rumpus out of beddus! I debated for about 15 minutes this morning on whether to do my training in the evening. But I knew that if I did that - i might not walk. And I thought about all those who have supported me thus far. So...I got up! :)<br /><br />Today's schedule was to walk for 3o minutes. Instead...I jogged a mile in 15 minutes, went 1.86 miles in the 30 minutes, and my average pace time was 16:14. Plus, of the 30 minutes, I only walked 10 minutes of it. <br /><br />However, my left knee is a little tender. So...I'm gunna start adding my knee exercises into my routine. For those who don't know, here is the knee set (to be done in succession to one another). While laying on your back (flat or propped up on your elbows), bend the right leg and extend the left. While lifting the left leg off the floor and flexing your foot toward your body, do the following:<br /><ul><li>trace the alphabet from A - Z (26)</li><li>make circles with your heal (25)</li><li>bend your leg toward your chest, then extend (but not fully) (25)</li><li>straighten left leg, and lift it up and down without the leg hitting the floor (25)</li></ul><p>Repeat this sequence with the right leg. The goal would be to eventually do all 4 exercises with each leg without stopping. These exercises help to strengthen the muscles surrounding the knee cap. Warning!!! these are hard as all get out, but SOOOOOOO beneficial.</p><p>Looking forward to tomorrow's training, and another opportunity to throw off all that could hold me back. </p>Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5974453571831579067.post-25987779068818621372010-05-24T12:45:00.002-04:002010-05-24T12:51:08.106-04:00Dear Anonymous:I have had several encouraging comments on this blog by Mr. or Ms. Anonymous. I completely understand if you would like to remain undisclosed. However, if you would like to make yourself known to me, and aren't exactly sure how to show your name...perhaps this link might help: <a href="http://www.google.com/support/blogger/bin/answer.py?hl=en&answer=42399">How Do I leave a Comment?</a> I myself had to read it so I could understand how commenting works.<br /><br />If you would like to remain anonymous on the blog, but wouldn't mind letting me know who you are privately, please send me an email to <a href="mailto:hebrews.ch12v1@gmail.com">hebrews.ch12v1@gmail.com</a>.<br /><br />Your comments are so vital to me. I read them often. Please continue to send them.Courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693862988869986103noreply@blogger.com2